This year's literature study is titled "Step by Wicked Step", story about broken homes - stepdads, stepmoms, what not. In midst of studying it I actually realised something, that actually my close/best friends are all from single families. Trufax.

The first was during Primary 1. She was closest to me when I first came to the school. Her mother died after having her brother. She was raised by her father and grandmother. 2 years later she moved, so I got another friend. She didn't start out from a single family at first. I have seen her parents, and they are absolutely wonderful. It was Primary 5. Her dad was overseas. Later on her family found out that he was gone, though I'm not sure how or why.

At the same period I was really close to a guy friend. He was always gloomy, he never liked smiling. I remember asking him why and he told me there are no reason to smile. He lost his mom of cancer. He started pouring everything to me and started a blog to write about 2 or 3 entries on his life and family, how he hated everyone and things.

Then it was secondary school. Another new friend of course, already knew she was from single family once I met her. Her parents divorced and living with her mom and brother, dad sending in money once a month, but does not meet the family. A lot of things happened, she shares the stories with me, all she could feel is disappointment in her dad. She's working hard so she'll get successful and take good care of her mom and brother. Apparently she's doing a much wonderful job than me in school.

And here comes a buddy. I love her so much, we just got along naturally and within days we were already sharing about our life. Yes, she lost her dad a few years ago from cancer. She's very strong inwardly, and I'm really proud of her.

Somehow a coincidence? These are not just my friends, they're all my closest friends. And no, I'm not from a single family though. I don't know what to feel about this.

 I dislike showing my vulnerable side to other people, no matter who they are. I never wanted people to see my soft side, I'd rather show them the arrogant me.

I didn't sleep well, then I woke up with a headache. I thought it was just because I slept late. My throat hurt from binging on everything I see the other day (totally my fault :p) and head keeps spinning. I still wanted to attend school so I could finish my orals. I was thinking I'd just hold on until the end of the day for it then only I'll skip the extra classes.

But.. guess I couldn't hold it in. Since the first period I have been lying down on the table and not touching the works teacher is telling me, before the second period ended she came and asked me if I'm okay. I told her I'd just go home.

She ordered the class monitor to bring me down to the office to call my parents. I did, after walking a few steps I vomitted in front of teacher's staff room. T---------T



There goes the monitor patting my back. She asked if I was okay, I just asked her to help me get my bag down and I'll go clean myself up. Sobs.

Well, at least no teacher saw me.

And i wanted to go school today! Physics rocket project where I can launch the rockets we made huhu. u___u